ghost from the past...

u fall like an angel to me
And you fell and broke your wings
It was never meant to last
You were just a ghost from the past

I thought you really could be real
That my heart was ready to bleed
When I walked through pain and fear
You would totally disappear

You know that I love you, you know what I need
You know that I find you so tender so sweet
We walked through the darkness, we walked in the sun
We shared all our sorrows, we shared all our love
You said that you love me you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don't know where you are I know that you're hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert


You came like a stranger to me
And you said you were for real
Now I do know where this will end
I was cold and I needed a friend
I turned on the light so you could see
I was stuck in some other dream
Still my eyes were crystal clear
You came closer and shattered my tears


How could you say you want me to go
When my diamond was starting to glow
When you knew that I wanted you so
You left me alone

what she said.. is not what her eyes said...

She says.. " I don't love you... "
Her eyes.. say " I'm crazy about you.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " I'm happy without you.. "
Her eyes say.. " I'm nowhere without you.. ♥ .. "
......
She says.. she has many to take care of her..
Her eyes say.. " But.. no one cares like you do .. ♥ .. "

She asks me to hold some one else's hand..
Her eyes say.. " never leave me.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " you're just a good friend.. "
Her eyes say.. " I can't see you to be someone else's.. ♥ .. "

Shee says.. "Go away "
Her eyes say.. " stay till my last heartbeat.. ♥ .. "

Shee says.. "Don't kiss me.. "
Her eyes say.. " Don't follow my words.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " wait for now.. "
Her eyes say.. " let's fall for each other.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " I'm confused.. "
Her eyes say.. " I JUST LOVE YOU.. ♥.. ♥

 

my life without them.... my world just an empty space...

jat.. dak kelantan .. die ni aku kenal time geng ngn dak dak bwah tu.. die adik aku ngn along.. ahhaha.. mintak tlong smua bley.. time cintan cinta.. mesti tunjuk kat kitaowng dulu.. ahhaha.. da approve baru die jalan.. tapi kekdang ingkar gak..aleh aleh.. nyesal..kan tk dgr ckp akak akak ko.. hahah.. tapi die ni baik..

chaq.. mmber plg best... bab time die becerite... mmg rase cam ade gak kat tmpat kejadian.. ahha. soundeffect the best.. chaq ni seorang abg yg bley di arap... antara mereke ni smua ..dia ni cm abg la .. and pandai mereka.. kepala ronda gak dak ni.. hahah

aus... dak manje ngn along... die lain skit dari adik adik yg lain.. tapi die bley diharap...and sweet and chumel...

tie.. aku kenal die time degree.. die seorang budak yg tk kacau idup orang..die wat hal masing masing and best..

edy... die ni da mcm cozin aku da.. tapi mmber sbenarnyer.. kami rapat gak la. sb time aku de prob.. agak nak maki hamun kat sesape .. mesti cari die la.. hahah.. sb bhs kitaowng mmg kasar... and mmg agak cm adik bradik r... best ..

jambu... die ni pelik skit.. tahap kegedikan die tu agak la.. huhu.. tapi kekdang tu bley arap gak la walaupun tak brape.. hahah.. tapi die ni kalo sesape nak wat jd bf... hahah.. fkir la btul tul...die ni gatai...

along... best... kami kawan rapat dr diploma smpai la skrng... time degree satu umah.. da mcm akak ngn adik.. nak g memane pun bedue.. sampai org skit ati tgok kami bahagie.. tapi takpe.. biar je org pnye ati.. ade kiteowng kisah.. tak pun.. hahah..

this one... a person that i love the most... time kapel ngn die.. aku sndiri tkejut ngn diri aku... i'm be a loyal lover.. wah.. dlm sejarah.. aku tak flirting around and really want him the best ... tp kesudahan tk kemane... baru je clash.. sb ala..ade la kan.. biase la tu problem.. tapi harap die dpt someone yg much better then me.. coz he is something that we can't find easily...

k.. tu la people that i love in my life... yg merangkum member la.. family offcoz la the first.. tapi kat sini nak cite psl mmber mmber yg tebaik yg pernah aku ade... till then.. arios.. slmat mmpekenalkan diri mereka...

this morning..

this morning i woke up without a single smile on my face..
this morning i looked at the mirror and saw my stressful face...
this morning i told myself.. i can't believe i really let him go...
yeah... i let him go... for real..

am i did the right things?
i hope so.. coz the title of boyfriend means a lot to me and it have a lot of responsibility and i think he can't do it.. he can't fulfilled it well
i'm standing there, be side of him... will only make him feel i'm a burden to him..

i decide to get over it..
and stop bothering him with my needs
i hope .. really really hope i did the right things..
all this time i try so hard .. try to understand him.. try to be the best for him.. i try everything..
and everything just feel not right..
mybe it will be right if i stop trying
yeah.. now .. i'm stop trying..

i really do want him to be my husband.. this time for sure..
but .. it's just me.. all this time.. everything just what i want to see on him..
and it so hurt when he's not what i want him to be..
the short way to do.. just let him go..

letting him go.. and wish everything will be alright..for me and him..

Bebuke puase.... wink wink..

karang nak g bebuke puase....

bunyi cm best je

tapi bile da start digging, only take 15 minutes, i'm already full..

best sebab nk bebuke reramai.. then after that.. SOLAT TERAWIH..

guess what... i'm lost weight.. it turn to 45kg from 50kg.. i lost 5 kg..

hehhe.. it's a good thing?? i don't know..

k .. chow .. chow.. got to go... nak g mandi.. nak siap siap nak gerak dah.. arios..

.....

[2:52:35 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k la....msj nk??[2:53:00 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i msj u smpai ttdo k
[2:54:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: syg
[2:54:53 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i out dlu k
[2:55:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk nk msj dlu
[2:55:58 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ni last
[2:56:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pomise last utk rini k
[2:56:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pas ni i gsok gg tidow k
[2:56:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: smpai pkul 8 esok
[2:56:39 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: alaaaa
[2:56:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im trying if u r mine ;B
[2:57:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: POO
[2:57:40 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: if u care for me sooo much... then be mine
[2:58:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: then be mine~
[2:58:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i'll wait for u
[2:58:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i give up everything for u
[2:59:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: everything
[2:59:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ye?
[3:00:01 AM] jaja: ape yg u nmpk kat i smpai cmtu skali
[3:00:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk
[3:00:16 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u tell me
[3:00:33 AM] jaja: i dun know la.. i'm asking u..
[3:01:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk, n i dont care..what i know i fall for u again n again n again...
[3:01:16 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: even if u change, i still want u
[3:01:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: coz u r what u r, n im taking u as u r
[3:02:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im not a sweet talker... im just saying sincerely from my heart
[3:02:52 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..from my broken heart...
[3:03:32 AM] jaja: i dulu ngn skrng jauh beze nyer..
[3:03:36 AM] jaja: u still ley time
[3:03:47 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pe yg beze nye??
[3:04:06 AM] jaja: tah la u.. but i dpt i rase i da tak cm dulu
[3:04:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i dont care
[3:04:40 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: as long as u r olivia fuentes... then i will luv u like i used to
[3:05:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk..nk olivia jgak ;p
[3:05:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: XNKKKKKKKK
[3:05:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: hahahahah
jaja
[3:05:37 AM] jaja: tu i yg skrng
[3:07:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: jap nga download
[3:07:42 AM] jaja: tetibe nati .. u da keje or smbung degree u jumpe org lain
[3:07:43 AM] jaja: cmne
[3:08:04 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: skrg pun i da jumpe org lain kn??
[3:08:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: tp still x leyh lupe kn u kn??
[3:08:29 AM] jaja: i wat pe ek.. smpai u tk ley lupe..
[3:08:38 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk.....
[3:08:49 AM] jaja: u epy bile ngan i?
[3:08:57 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yes
[3:09:07 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:10:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im hppy with u..do u??
[3:10:25 AM] jaja: urm.. i rase epy..
[3:10:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: so then whats the problems?
[3:11:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: kalau u xtau mknenye bnde uh x pnting..so plz comme back dear...
[3:11:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u know theres always a place for u in my hearts
[3:12:21 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x dga?
[3:12:41 AM] jaja: urm.. i ckp..biarkan je cmni k..
[3:12:49 AM] jaja: maybe sb i takut komitmen..
[3:13:00 AM] jaja: tapi i enjoy ngn u.
[3:13:03 AM] jaja: best
[3:13:05 AM] jaja: epy
[3:13:25 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup, i pun tkut komitmen..but when i with u..i have nothing to worry about
[3:13:33 AM] jaja: nape?
[3:13:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u r a perfect lover for me
[3:13:56 AM] jaja: ye la tu
[3:14:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: klau x..xkn i still cri u
[3:14:23 AM] jaja: ari tu time i cari u blik u tak nak
[3:14:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im angry
[3:15:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u leave me,then tbe2 u dtg blik,cm xde pe2 pun jd..u x ckp sorry pon
[3:15:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: what do u expect??
[3:16:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u know how i miss ur laugh, ur voice,ur eyes,ur lips,ur hair
[3:16:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: everything bout u drive me insanely crazy
[3:16:58 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: jnji pe??
[3:17:13 AM] jaja: study tul tul.. pat pat smbung degree
[3:17:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..
[3:17:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im aiming fast track.... u igt npe i mek OM??
[3:18:00 AM] jaja: u nak keje pe nati??
[3:18:03 AM] jaja: da fkir?
[3:18:13 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..
[3:18:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i've plans everything
[3:18:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: huh??
[3:18:58 AM] jaja: nk keje pe nati?
[3:19:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u'll see if u wif me
[3:19:22 AM] jaja: ok
[3:20:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: promise me u never leave me again?
[3:20:48 AM] jaja: i'll wiv u.. tapi... urm.. mcm ni je k..
[3:21:05 AM] jaja: i tak berani da nak letak name tuk relationship
[3:21:12 AM] jaja: i takut tak kekal
[3:21:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: mcm ni mc mne?
[3:21:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: mcm mne??
[3:21:55 AM] jaja: mcm skrng ni..
[3:22:04 AM] jaja: tak yah fkir siyes sg
[3:22:07 AM] jaja: sgt
[3:22:13 AM] jaja: enjoy je.
[3:22:16 AM] jaja: heheh
[3:22:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thdde problems is kite pnah siyes kew??
[3:22:49 AM] jaja: kekadang i rase mcm tu..
[3:23:05 AM] jaja: a little bit scary u know.. hehehe
[3:23:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no u wrong..
[3:23:33 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im siyes bout u... coz u the only that make me hppy
[3:23:38 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u the onee that can save me
[3:23:55 AM] jaja: that so sweet..
[3:24:18 AM] jaja: bile nak tido ni
[3:24:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: dont change the subject syg
[3:24:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i know u almost cry
[3:25:09 AM] jaja: pic td da dpt da?
[3:25:57 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: da
[3:26:01 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: so what??
[3:26:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u still have those bright eyes, those kissable lips, those sweet nose.....
[3:26:30 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u still u...
[3:27:13 AM] jaja: i nk cite kat u something.. my ex said i'm not his taste after i showed him that pic.
[3:27:30 AM] jaja: till now no news about himm
[3:27:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: soo???? its his lost.. he dont desrve u.... still, i dont desrve u too.... but i really want u
[3:28:29 AM] jaja: sowi ek.. time u dad  tu i takde ngan u..
[3:28:38 AM] jaja: i tau pun bile i bukak fb u
[3:28:53 AM] jaja: *ur dad
[3:29:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yes...
[3:29:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats why im soo angry wif u...out of blue u came to me said u know how i feel..
[3:29:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no, u wrong... u dont know how i feel
[3:29:56 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u dont have any idea
[3:30:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats why im soo mad at u
[3:30:26 AM] jaja: huhu.. i tau .. sb tu i tak tau nak anta msg pe kat u..
[3:30:48 AM] jaja: sblm i anta msg tu kat u.. i keep thinking of u.. tak tau nape..
[3:30:54 AM] jaja: sb tu i bukak fb u..
[3:31:01 AM] jaja: then i know..
[3:31:13 AM] jaja: tpi tak tau nak strt our conversation cmne..
[3:31:59 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: erm..its okee la... whats matter the most now, here u are, infront of me, i wont let u go again...no,not this time..
[3:32:20 AM] jaja: ok..
[3:32:24 AM] jaja: i cn see that..
[3:32:40 AM] jaja: u tk kisah i da btudung skrng??
[3:32:42 AM] jaja: heheh...
[3:32:56 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nope... lg i skew ade la....
[3:33:05 AM] jaja: ye ke..
[3:33:10 AM] jaja: tak tau lak u suke gurl btudung
[3:33:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: act, i dont~..... i just like u who u r
[3:33:48 AM] jaja: klakar r u ni
[3:33:51 AM] jaja: tepuk dahi kang
[3:34:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: npew lak?? btol la "___"
[3:34:51 AM] jaja: tak nampak u la
[3:34:53 AM] jaja: haah
[3:35:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: sje nk bg u rindu kt i
[3:35:18 AM] jaja: perasan la awak ni
[3:35:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: tp tu yg awk ske kn??
[3:35:50 AM] jaja: diam r
[3:36:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i dr td da diam
[3:36:17 AM] jaja: mcm mcm r u ni
[3:36:30 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: btol la... u nk tau x npe i diam??
[3:36:35 AM] jaja: nape
[3:36:51 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: psl i nga nanges......
[3:36:59 AM] jaja: tul ke ni
[3:37:03 AM] jaja: u memainkan i kan
[3:37:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no..its the truth..... air mate i dr td kuar start i luah kn prasaan i kt u
[3:37:50 AM] jaja: ok ok.. da jgn nagis g k..
[3:37:55 AM] jaja: i da de ngan u skrng ni
[3:37:56 AM] jaja: k..
[3:38:01 AM] jaja: tak g memane pun..
[3:38:19 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats what u said last time
[3:38:46 AM] jaja: i dun know what to say.. but i really mean it..
[3:38:55 AM] jaja: i de kat sini.. k
[3:39:27 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i can feel it k....... i really need u...... im nothing without u
[3:39:54 AM] jaja: faris faris faris.. i takut sb pebezeaan umur kite
[3:40:00 AM] jaja: pmpuan akan cpat tue..
[3:40:07 AM] jaja: nati u yg rugi..
[3:40:19 AM] jaja: mmber u nati time da kawin.. wife msg msg mude g..
[3:40:34 AM] jaja: kalo i kawin ngn u .. hah.. i lg tue dr u
[3:40:39 AM] jaja: cmne?
[3:41:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: soo what... let people said what their want... bcoz their dont know who u are... who u really is....how fragile u r deep inside...but still how gentle u r with me...
[3:42:38 AM] jaja: u sure u will say the same words as today bile smpai mase kedepan nati..
[3:43:01 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i said this words when i take a vow as ur husband.......
[3:43:17 AM] jaja: u ni kan..
[3:43:28 AM] jaja: hey budak..umur bape ni
[3:44:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: the age doenst make difference..but the mental is.. and u know how hard i try to be an 26 years old man??? its hards, damm hard..but its worthy wif u..
[3:45:13 AM] jaja: pandai mnjawab kan.. hehehe
[3:45:19 AM] jaja: u ni la
[3:45:28 AM] jaja: kalo dekat da lame i tepuk dahi u
[3:45:39 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp lak???
[3:45:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i just said what i feel...
[3:45:50 AM] jaja: sb de je jawapan nyer..
[3:45:59 AM] jaja: byk mcm..
[3:46:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp??? jawapan nye slh ke?
[3:46:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x
[3:46:53 AM] jaja: biz i mmbebel sengsoran.
[3:46:55 AM] jaja: hahha
[3:47:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: erm
[3:47:10 AM] jaja: i ckp. akmo nagis da k
[3:47:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: its not like i can control it.. the tears suddenly fall as idk...
[3:48:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: bcoz i said all those things wif my hearts.....
[3:48:10 AM] jaja: k k..
[3:48:15 AM] jaja: da ek..
[3:48:30 AM] jaja: u ckp byk sgt mlm ni.. smpai i tak tau nak ckp pape...
[3:48:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp lak??
[3:48:51 AM] jaja: tak tau..
[3:49:00 AM] jaja: mybe sb i byk slah kat u
[3:49:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ermm..its oke, i just want u to know how i feel
[3:49:29 AM] jaja: eh ..
[3:49:37 AM] jaja: u merokok g ke
[3:49:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x
[3:49:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i da pomise td kn
[3:49:49 AM] jaja: hah.. ingat merokok g
[3:49:50 AM] jaja: hahah
[3:49:52 AM] jaja: ok ok
[3:49:59 AM] jaja: esok quiz ni
[3:50:08 AM] jaja: u sure u ley wat
[3:50:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k... i tido k
[3:50:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im sure k
[3:51:39 AM] jaja: nampak mate u je
[3:51:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup
[3:52:00 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u nye wc pun da mle stuck
[3:52:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: esok kite smbung k
[3:52:10 AM] jaja: ok..
[3:52:17 AM] jaja: nitz b
[3:52:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u da off ke?
[3:52:38 AM] jaja: blum
[3:52:39 AM] jaja: nape
[3:52:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xla
[3:52:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i da nk out da
[3:53:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: cri i kt ne ke?
[3:54:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k la..i out dlu k syg?
[3:55:15 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: blow me a kiss plz?
[3:55:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xde??
[3:55:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nk kuat2...heeee
[3:56:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk
[3:56:29 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k....
[3:56:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nite syg
[3:57:01 AM] *** Call ended ***

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

kenape??...

ade org cakap cinte ni best
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite happy
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite rase diri kite dihargai
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite bahagie..

tu smua org ckp... mmg kite akan rase pe yg org org tu ckp.. tapi

kite tak rase ..
sakitnyer bile rase cinte kite tak seperti yang kite harapkan
sakitnyer bile diri kite dilukai org yg kite cinte
sakitnye bile kite menangis kerane org yg kite cinte
sakitnyer hati kite bile kite rase kite tak diendah org yg kite cinte
sakitnyer bile org yg kite cinte kite rase seakan dah berubah hati

mende mende mcm ni wat aku risau tuk mecintai seseorng sepenuh hati walaupun org itu begelar suami... manusia mudah lupe.. manusia mudah berubah...