2012 dot dot dot....

hi,

it' been too long not come visit my own site... ^^
still remember how my feeling for each post i have wrote here.... still remember clearly....

now, already working.. but i try my best to stay with my job, because the work job.. totally different with what you see at movie , beyond your imagination ... huh.. sigh~ totally different that;s why people always said, face your reality then you deserve to enjoy your fantasy.

they are right... if you able to face your reality life every second , evey minutes... and you can handle it well, then you deserve to enjoy your fantasy world.. if not , you will be left behind...


urm.... like i said i'm still try to handle my reality world, and i'm not sure what will happen next...
not dare to think about it.

then.. now, i know...
life not so easy... if you guys think your life is easy to take care of,... you're lucky person.. and i'm so jeleous of you.. ^^ because i;m still learning to make it easy to handle it,.... sigh~

owh.. about love life, honestly no time for it, but sometime, i do need someone to talk with.. but i still not find him,, i wonder where is he right now... why take time to be at my side... hmm... only Allah know why...

till then. if there any new bad or good, i will write it here...

Assalammualaikum..

jom jalan jalan..

ari ni teman mak and my sis kuar.. sambil tu mia pun tumpang sekaki tuk nak mmbeli krim muke.. da abiz.. rase cm kering je muke..

first kitaowng g sungai petani g beli barang barang stationary tuk koperasi mak kat sekolah... byk gile mmbeli.. and then we all spend time kat situ sampai asar... then gerak ke central square... (cs)..

g sane terus g watson.. antara guardian ngn watson.. suke g watson g.. sb barang die agak bersepah.. so cm best... byk barang ley pilih.. guardian teratur.. nak pegang pun takut.. kang jatuh la.. selerahkan la.. urm.. nampak sgt.. hahah.. so g tgok krim pe lak nak gune.. mia gune safi rania gold.. memang la tuk org berumur.. tapi .. tak slah kalo nak try awal awal.. ikut jenis kulit.. mcm mia.. kulit cepat kering.. kalo pakai dak dak nyerk , alamatnyer takde jadi pape.. so try safi rania.. best, menjadi, kulit pun ok..  tapi yg penting.. mak bayar.. harge die murah je.. safi rania gold day krim, RM20.30. murah je...
otw nk balik singgah macD... wah da lame gile tak makan macD, beli one large set big mac... kenyang... sedap... nak lagi!!!

pusing pusing mall sampai petang,masing masing da beli barang so kitawong pun blik.. sampai je umah terus maghrib.. alhamdulilah.. and tersgtla bagus.. telepas asar, huk3..  tapi takpe.. sy cuti.. cuti cuti m'sia.. peace..

lenggung tk jadi ... peneng otw.. wink wink.. jalan jugak..

tak jadi g lenggung malam ni .. sb satu family letih.. ye la kan.. seharian menjamu orang .. bjalan raye lagi.. ziarah sane sini... tetibe tadi abang ipar nak g jalan peneng.. wah.. mia lak pantang diajak.. cepat cepat di siap...

 

pastu dlm otw nak g borak la ngn akak mia ni.. da lame tak jumpe kan.. diekan kat kl da skrng.. so da blik ni borak la kami... abang ipar mia tu lak.. diam je... hehek... mmg stail tu pun...

mlm tadi kitawong kat peneng lepak kat padang kote lame je.. saje .. mmg boleh cuci mate la.. seksi gile dak dak skrang.. heheh.. memang ikut fesyen r.. tet.. no komen.. asalkan diawong selese..

k la mia da ngantuk.. and sgt ngantuk.. esok tak tau nak g mane lak.. tgok la kalo larat...

HALI LAYE.... MANYAK SYOK!!

pejam mate pejam mate.. da raye...da masuk hari raye ke tige da... best... first raye.. first time tgok ayah nak nagis time anak anak die nak besalam ngn die... urm.. aku sedih gak.. tapi tahan nagis.. taknak la wt drama raye pepagi bute.. takut nati btambah sebak lak... so try to control my emosi... heheh..

first raye.. kitaowng tema hijau nak ala ala petronas truqois cmtu.. agaknye la... heheh.. best la jugak first raye.. pas je solat aidil fitri.. kitawong terus g umah sedare mare... jalan smpai petang... last balik.. smua letih.. smpai lupe.. mlm tu ari merdeka.. huk3.. sorry malaysia.. i love u.. i do.. tapi penat seyh... huhu..

second raye.. kitawong duk umah .. tgu org datang.. letih la.. basuh pinggan yg same bekali kali.. huk3... tape.. nak raye kan.. kasi chance kasi mmber mmber buli mia basuh pinggan dan melayan meke meke.. huk3.. takpe .. tugu.. raye ketige.. sy lak g  mmblas dendam...hik3.. gelak jahat..

third raye.... kitawong tema ikut suke ati.. hahah.. aku merah maron, mak coklat, akak putih.. adik laki.. ikut rockers die.. adik pmpuan.. takde mende lain.. org raye.. die kilik buku.. huhu.. msg msg stail...

 

picture sekeluarga... wink wink... kalo nampak .. de kucing sekor tlepas.. siap join posing.. (sebelah kanan sekali kat bawah..)

 time ni yg sedih ni...ayah tetibe sebak.. adesh.. huk3.. cover cover..

yg ni pic syok sndiri.. hahah.. takde sape nak mik pic sy.. sy mik sndiri la.. ni raye ketige.. in maron..

mlm ni kitaowng plan nak g mandi lenggung.. heheh..bunyik cm best je.. harap harap menjadi la.. harap sgt ni.. da tbyag bayang da..

ghost from the past...

u fall like an angel to me
And you fell and broke your wings
It was never meant to last
You were just a ghost from the past

I thought you really could be real
That my heart was ready to bleed
When I walked through pain and fear
You would totally disappear

You know that I love you, you know what I need
You know that I find you so tender so sweet
We walked through the darkness, we walked in the sun
We shared all our sorrows, we shared all our love
You said that you love me you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don't know where you are I know that you're hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert


You came like a stranger to me
And you said you were for real
Now I do know where this will end
I was cold and I needed a friend
I turned on the light so you could see
I was stuck in some other dream
Still my eyes were crystal clear
You came closer and shattered my tears


How could you say you want me to go
When my diamond was starting to glow
When you knew that I wanted you so
You left me alone

what she said.. is not what her eyes said...

She says.. " I don't love you... "
Her eyes.. say " I'm crazy about you.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " I'm happy without you.. "
Her eyes say.. " I'm nowhere without you.. ♥ .. "
......
She says.. she has many to take care of her..
Her eyes say.. " But.. no one cares like you do .. ♥ .. "

She asks me to hold some one else's hand..
Her eyes say.. " never leave me.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " you're just a good friend.. "
Her eyes say.. " I can't see you to be someone else's.. ♥ .. "

Shee says.. "Go away "
Her eyes say.. " stay till my last heartbeat.. ♥ .. "

Shee says.. "Don't kiss me.. "
Her eyes say.. " Don't follow my words.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " wait for now.. "
Her eyes say.. " let's fall for each other.. ♥ .. "

She says.. " I'm confused.. "
Her eyes say.. " I JUST LOVE YOU.. ♥.. ♥

 

my life without them.... my world just an empty space...

jat.. dak kelantan .. die ni aku kenal time geng ngn dak dak bwah tu.. die adik aku ngn along.. ahhaha.. mintak tlong smua bley.. time cintan cinta.. mesti tunjuk kat kitaowng dulu.. ahhaha.. da approve baru die jalan.. tapi kekdang ingkar gak..aleh aleh.. nyesal..kan tk dgr ckp akak akak ko.. hahah.. tapi die ni baik..

chaq.. mmber plg best... bab time die becerite... mmg rase cam ade gak kat tmpat kejadian.. ahha. soundeffect the best.. chaq ni seorang abg yg bley di arap... antara mereke ni smua ..dia ni cm abg la .. and pandai mereka.. kepala ronda gak dak ni.. hahah

aus... dak manje ngn along... die lain skit dari adik adik yg lain.. tapi die bley diharap...and sweet and chumel...

tie.. aku kenal die time degree.. die seorang budak yg tk kacau idup orang..die wat hal masing masing and best..

edy... die ni da mcm cozin aku da.. tapi mmber sbenarnyer.. kami rapat gak la. sb time aku de prob.. agak nak maki hamun kat sesape .. mesti cari die la.. hahah.. sb bhs kitaowng mmg kasar... and mmg agak cm adik bradik r... best ..

jambu... die ni pelik skit.. tahap kegedikan die tu agak la.. huhu.. tapi kekdang tu bley arap gak la walaupun tak brape.. hahah.. tapi die ni kalo sesape nak wat jd bf... hahah.. fkir la btul tul...die ni gatai...

along... best... kami kawan rapat dr diploma smpai la skrng... time degree satu umah.. da mcm akak ngn adik.. nak g memane pun bedue.. sampai org skit ati tgok kami bahagie.. tapi takpe.. biar je org pnye ati.. ade kiteowng kisah.. tak pun.. hahah..

this one... a person that i love the most... time kapel ngn die.. aku sndiri tkejut ngn diri aku... i'm be a loyal lover.. wah.. dlm sejarah.. aku tak flirting around and really want him the best ... tp kesudahan tk kemane... baru je clash.. sb ala..ade la kan.. biase la tu problem.. tapi harap die dpt someone yg much better then me.. coz he is something that we can't find easily...

k.. tu la people that i love in my life... yg merangkum member la.. family offcoz la the first.. tapi kat sini nak cite psl mmber mmber yg tebaik yg pernah aku ade... till then.. arios.. slmat mmpekenalkan diri mereka...

this morning..

this morning i woke up without a single smile on my face..
this morning i looked at the mirror and saw my stressful face...
this morning i told myself.. i can't believe i really let him go...
yeah... i let him go... for real..

am i did the right things?
i hope so.. coz the title of boyfriend means a lot to me and it have a lot of responsibility and i think he can't do it.. he can't fulfilled it well
i'm standing there, be side of him... will only make him feel i'm a burden to him..

i decide to get over it..
and stop bothering him with my needs
i hope .. really really hope i did the right things..
all this time i try so hard .. try to understand him.. try to be the best for him.. i try everything..
and everything just feel not right..
mybe it will be right if i stop trying
yeah.. now .. i'm stop trying..

i really do want him to be my husband.. this time for sure..
but .. it's just me.. all this time.. everything just what i want to see on him..
and it so hurt when he's not what i want him to be..
the short way to do.. just let him go..

letting him go.. and wish everything will be alright..for me and him..

Bebuke puase.... wink wink..

karang nak g bebuke puase....

bunyi cm best je

tapi bile da start digging, only take 15 minutes, i'm already full..

best sebab nk bebuke reramai.. then after that.. SOLAT TERAWIH..

guess what... i'm lost weight.. it turn to 45kg from 50kg.. i lost 5 kg..

hehhe.. it's a good thing?? i don't know..

k .. chow .. chow.. got to go... nak g mandi.. nak siap siap nak gerak dah.. arios..

.....

[2:52:35 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k la....msj nk??[2:53:00 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i msj u smpai ttdo k
[2:54:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: syg
[2:54:53 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i out dlu k
[2:55:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk nk msj dlu
[2:55:58 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ni last
[2:56:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pomise last utk rini k
[2:56:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pas ni i gsok gg tidow k
[2:56:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: smpai pkul 8 esok
[2:56:39 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: alaaaa
[2:56:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im trying if u r mine ;B
[2:57:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: POO
[2:57:40 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: if u care for me sooo much... then be mine
[2:58:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: then be mine~
[2:58:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i'll wait for u
[2:58:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i give up everything for u
[2:59:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: everything
[2:59:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ye?
[3:00:01 AM] jaja: ape yg u nmpk kat i smpai cmtu skali
[3:00:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk
[3:00:16 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u tell me
[3:00:33 AM] jaja: i dun know la.. i'm asking u..
[3:01:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk, n i dont care..what i know i fall for u again n again n again...
[3:01:16 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: even if u change, i still want u
[3:01:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: coz u r what u r, n im taking u as u r
[3:02:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im not a sweet talker... im just saying sincerely from my heart
[3:02:52 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..from my broken heart...
[3:03:32 AM] jaja: i dulu ngn skrng jauh beze nyer..
[3:03:36 AM] jaja: u still ley time
[3:03:47 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: pe yg beze nye??
[3:04:06 AM] jaja: tah la u.. but i dpt i rase i da tak cm dulu
[3:04:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i dont care
[3:04:40 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: as long as u r olivia fuentes... then i will luv u like i used to
[3:05:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk..nk olivia jgak ;p
[3:05:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: XNKKKKKKKK
[3:05:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: hahahahah
jaja
[3:05:37 AM] jaja: tu i yg skrng
[3:07:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: jap nga download
[3:07:42 AM] jaja: tetibe nati .. u da keje or smbung degree u jumpe org lain
[3:07:43 AM] jaja: cmne
[3:08:04 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: skrg pun i da jumpe org lain kn??
[3:08:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: tp still x leyh lupe kn u kn??
[3:08:29 AM] jaja: i wat pe ek.. smpai u tk ley lupe..
[3:08:38 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: idk.....
[3:08:49 AM] jaja: u epy bile ngan i?
[3:08:57 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yes
[3:09:07 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:09:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: .
[3:10:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im hppy with u..do u??
[3:10:25 AM] jaja: urm.. i rase epy..
[3:10:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: so then whats the problems?
[3:11:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: kalau u xtau mknenye bnde uh x pnting..so plz comme back dear...
[3:11:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u know theres always a place for u in my hearts
[3:12:21 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x dga?
[3:12:41 AM] jaja: urm.. i ckp..biarkan je cmni k..
[3:12:49 AM] jaja: maybe sb i takut komitmen..
[3:13:00 AM] jaja: tapi i enjoy ngn u.
[3:13:03 AM] jaja: best
[3:13:05 AM] jaja: epy
[3:13:25 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup, i pun tkut komitmen..but when i with u..i have nothing to worry about
[3:13:33 AM] jaja: nape?
[3:13:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u r a perfect lover for me
[3:13:56 AM] jaja: ye la tu
[3:14:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: klau x..xkn i still cri u
[3:14:23 AM] jaja: ari tu time i cari u blik u tak nak
[3:14:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im angry
[3:15:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u leave me,then tbe2 u dtg blik,cm xde pe2 pun jd..u x ckp sorry pon
[3:15:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: what do u expect??
[3:16:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u know how i miss ur laugh, ur voice,ur eyes,ur lips,ur hair
[3:16:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: everything bout u drive me insanely crazy
[3:16:58 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: jnji pe??
[3:17:13 AM] jaja: study tul tul.. pat pat smbung degree
[3:17:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..
[3:17:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im aiming fast track.... u igt npe i mek OM??
[3:18:00 AM] jaja: u nak keje pe nati??
[3:18:03 AM] jaja: da fkir?
[3:18:13 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup..
[3:18:24 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i've plans everything
[3:18:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: huh??
[3:18:58 AM] jaja: nk keje pe nati?
[3:19:12 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u'll see if u wif me
[3:19:22 AM] jaja: ok
[3:20:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: promise me u never leave me again?
[3:20:48 AM] jaja: i'll wiv u.. tapi... urm.. mcm ni je k..
[3:21:05 AM] jaja: i tak berani da nak letak name tuk relationship
[3:21:12 AM] jaja: i takut tak kekal
[3:21:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: mcm ni mc mne?
[3:21:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: mcm mne??
[3:21:55 AM] jaja: mcm skrng ni..
[3:22:04 AM] jaja: tak yah fkir siyes sg
[3:22:07 AM] jaja: sgt
[3:22:13 AM] jaja: enjoy je.
[3:22:16 AM] jaja: heheh
[3:22:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thdde problems is kite pnah siyes kew??
[3:22:49 AM] jaja: kekadang i rase mcm tu..
[3:23:05 AM] jaja: a little bit scary u know.. hehehe
[3:23:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no u wrong..
[3:23:33 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im siyes bout u... coz u the only that make me hppy
[3:23:38 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u the onee that can save me
[3:23:55 AM] jaja: that so sweet..
[3:24:18 AM] jaja: bile nak tido ni
[3:24:31 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: dont change the subject syg
[3:24:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i know u almost cry
[3:25:09 AM] jaja: pic td da dpt da?
[3:25:57 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: da
[3:26:01 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: so what??
[3:26:26 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u still have those bright eyes, those kissable lips, those sweet nose.....
[3:26:30 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u still u...
[3:27:13 AM] jaja: i nk cite kat u something.. my ex said i'm not his taste after i showed him that pic.
[3:27:30 AM] jaja: till now no news about himm
[3:27:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: soo???? its his lost.. he dont desrve u.... still, i dont desrve u too.... but i really want u
[3:28:29 AM] jaja: sowi ek.. time u dad  tu i takde ngan u..
[3:28:38 AM] jaja: i tau pun bile i bukak fb u
[3:28:53 AM] jaja: *ur dad
[3:29:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yes...
[3:29:37 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats why im soo angry wif u...out of blue u came to me said u know how i feel..
[3:29:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no, u wrong... u dont know how i feel
[3:29:56 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u dont have any idea
[3:30:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats why im soo mad at u
[3:30:26 AM] jaja: huhu.. i tau .. sb tu i tak tau nak anta msg pe kat u..
[3:30:48 AM] jaja: sblm i anta msg tu kat u.. i keep thinking of u.. tak tau nape..
[3:30:54 AM] jaja: sb tu i bukak fb u..
[3:31:01 AM] jaja: then i know..
[3:31:13 AM] jaja: tpi tak tau nak strt our conversation cmne..
[3:31:59 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: erm..its okee la... whats matter the most now, here u are, infront of me, i wont let u go again...no,not this time..
[3:32:20 AM] jaja: ok..
[3:32:24 AM] jaja: i cn see that..
[3:32:40 AM] jaja: u tk kisah i da btudung skrng??
[3:32:42 AM] jaja: heheh...
[3:32:56 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nope... lg i skew ade la....
[3:33:05 AM] jaja: ye ke..
[3:33:10 AM] jaja: tak tau lak u suke gurl btudung
[3:33:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: act, i dont~..... i just like u who u r
[3:33:48 AM] jaja: klakar r u ni
[3:33:51 AM] jaja: tepuk dahi kang
[3:34:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: npew lak?? btol la "___"
[3:34:51 AM] jaja: tak nampak u la
[3:34:53 AM] jaja: haah
[3:35:08 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: sje nk bg u rindu kt i
[3:35:18 AM] jaja: perasan la awak ni
[3:35:42 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: tp tu yg awk ske kn??
[3:35:50 AM] jaja: diam r
[3:36:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i dr td da diam
[3:36:17 AM] jaja: mcm mcm r u ni
[3:36:30 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: btol la... u nk tau x npe i diam??
[3:36:35 AM] jaja: nape
[3:36:51 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: psl i nga nanges......
[3:36:59 AM] jaja: tul ke ni
[3:37:03 AM] jaja: u memainkan i kan
[3:37:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: no..its the truth..... air mate i dr td kuar start i luah kn prasaan i kt u
[3:37:50 AM] jaja: ok ok.. da jgn nagis g k..
[3:37:55 AM] jaja: i da de ngan u skrng ni
[3:37:56 AM] jaja: k..
[3:38:01 AM] jaja: tak g memane pun..
[3:38:19 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: thats what u said last time
[3:38:46 AM] jaja: i dun know what to say.. but i really mean it..
[3:38:55 AM] jaja: i de kat sini.. k
[3:39:27 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i can feel it k....... i really need u...... im nothing without u
[3:39:54 AM] jaja: faris faris faris.. i takut sb pebezeaan umur kite
[3:40:00 AM] jaja: pmpuan akan cpat tue..
[3:40:07 AM] jaja: nati u yg rugi..
[3:40:19 AM] jaja: mmber u nati time da kawin.. wife msg msg mude g..
[3:40:34 AM] jaja: kalo i kawin ngn u .. hah.. i lg tue dr u
[3:40:39 AM] jaja: cmne?
[3:41:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: soo what... let people said what their want... bcoz their dont know who u are... who u really is....how fragile u r deep inside...but still how gentle u r with me...
[3:42:38 AM] jaja: u sure u will say the same words as today bile smpai mase kedepan nati..
[3:43:01 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i said this words when i take a vow as ur husband.......
[3:43:17 AM] jaja: u ni kan..
[3:43:28 AM] jaja: hey budak..umur bape ni
[3:44:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: the age doenst make difference..but the mental is.. and u know how hard i try to be an 26 years old man??? its hards, damm hard..but its worthy wif u..
[3:45:13 AM] jaja: pandai mnjawab kan.. hehehe
[3:45:19 AM] jaja: u ni la
[3:45:28 AM] jaja: kalo dekat da lame i tepuk dahi u
[3:45:39 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp lak???
[3:45:48 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i just said what i feel...
[3:45:50 AM] jaja: sb de je jawapan nyer..
[3:45:59 AM] jaja: byk mcm..
[3:46:17 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp??? jawapan nye slh ke?
[3:46:43 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x
[3:46:53 AM] jaja: biz i mmbebel sengsoran.
[3:46:55 AM] jaja: hahha
[3:47:05 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: erm
[3:47:10 AM] jaja: i ckp. akmo nagis da k
[3:47:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: its not like i can control it.. the tears suddenly fall as idk...
[3:48:03 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: bcoz i said all those things wif my hearts.....
[3:48:10 AM] jaja: k k..
[3:48:15 AM] jaja: da ek..
[3:48:30 AM] jaja: u ckp byk sgt mlm ni.. smpai i tak tau nak ckp pape...
[3:48:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: knp lak??
[3:48:51 AM] jaja: tak tau..
[3:49:00 AM] jaja: mybe sb i byk slah kat u
[3:49:09 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: ermm..its oke, i just want u to know how i feel
[3:49:29 AM] jaja: eh ..
[3:49:37 AM] jaja: u merokok g ke
[3:49:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: x
[3:49:46 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i da pomise td kn
[3:49:49 AM] jaja: hah.. ingat merokok g
[3:49:50 AM] jaja: hahah
[3:49:52 AM] jaja: ok ok
[3:49:59 AM] jaja: esok quiz ni
[3:50:08 AM] jaja: u sure u ley wat
[3:50:14 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k... i tido k
[3:50:20 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: im sure k
[3:51:39 AM] jaja: nampak mate u je
[3:51:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: yup
[3:52:00 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u nye wc pun da mle stuck
[3:52:06 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: esok kite smbung k
[3:52:10 AM] jaja: ok..
[3:52:17 AM] jaja: nitz b
[3:52:32 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: u da off ke?
[3:52:38 AM] jaja: blum
[3:52:39 AM] jaja: nape
[3:52:45 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xla
[3:52:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: i da nk out da
[3:53:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: cri i kt ne ke?
[3:54:49 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k la..i out dlu k syg?
[3:55:15 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: blow me a kiss plz?
[3:55:41 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xde??
[3:55:55 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nk kuat2...heeee
[3:56:10 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: xnk
[3:56:29 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: k....
[3:56:34 AM] mohammed faris adzhari: nite syg
[3:57:01 AM] *** Call ended ***

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

kenape??...

ade org cakap cinte ni best
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite happy
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite rase diri kite dihargai
ade org ckp cinte ni boleh wat kite bahagie..

tu smua org ckp... mmg kite akan rase pe yg org org tu ckp.. tapi

kite tak rase ..
sakitnyer bile rase cinte kite tak seperti yang kite harapkan
sakitnyer bile diri kite dilukai org yg kite cinte
sakitnye bile kite menangis kerane org yg kite cinte
sakitnyer hati kite bile kite rase kite tak diendah org yg kite cinte
sakitnyer bile org yg kite cinte kite rase seakan dah berubah hati

mende mende mcm ni wat aku risau tuk mecintai seseorng sepenuh hati walaupun org itu begelar suami... manusia mudah lupe.. manusia mudah berubah...

when a guy ask question to his girl...

at the club... the guy dance with another girl, sensually, crazy and party non stop, his gf at the table have fun by herself and some of friends, and also watching her boy with another girl. .. but.. the girl just smile and enjoy the music spining by the DJ.

done dancing.. the guy came to her girl and try to start a conversation with her.

guy: you know babe, you're weird..
girl: keep smiling, why you said like that?
guy: if you are normal, you will be kick the chick ass... she dancing and kissing with your boy,
girl: should i ?
guy: yeah,..
girl: you want me to be like that..
guy: just remain silents and try to stop the conversation

girl: laugh.. and whisper to her boy's ears, i do get jealous, but just a little..

guy: show unsatisfaction face, because he think his girl not seriusly in love with him, just a little? k .. fine.. now i know where's my part in your heart..

girl: leave the table and go to the dance floor.. before that... she said to her boy, i got jealous  just a little because i know i can do much better than her and that's enough to make you crazy on me..

the guy just smile and follow his girl and enjoy the party..

am i

just thinking, am i going back to the old my... ah.. nobody care, it's just ups to me... the world so damn cruel, crap, i hate this, try to change to be what we call so baik la.. urm.. i guess i'm going to be the old me. that's the way it is.

what i'm only heard , sreaming , yealing .. so hate it..
what i'm doing, keep crying.. am i that lucky?? it's we call lucky
i hate you all
nothing change
all of it just a drama that u guys make it to make it look the way u want
fuck off la.. i hate this life..

i'm  on my own now..
like before...
everything is just me...


nothing can we call happy family... crap... all of it  is just nothing... yes.. i am from a broken family?? so what?? that's make me be the way i am...
don't judge me... i don't need it..

Safira Resort...

2 hari spend time with my mom kat Safira Resort Club, best... time tu la masenye nak rehatkan jiwe... mane tak nyer.. byk je kawan kawan yang da kerje, byk jugak yang da kawin.. bab kawin tu tak kesah sgt.. tapi bab keje tu.. huhu.. so mls nk fikir mia spend time je kat sane.. 2 hari pun cukup la..

kesudahan..... nasib nasib, i'll not giving up...

selepas megamuk di office, sebab tak tahan dengan peragai si miti, senior dibawah department yang same mulut langsung tak beradap, baik cina cina kat situ lagi tau nak beradab dan bebudi bahase.  seminggu bekerja kat situ, masuk hari ke ke 8, buat keje macam biase, tetibe de prob dengan printer, aku tau polisi tmpat tu cube nak jimat, tak nak waste, so aku fikir la care nak elakan pembaziran, da gune recyle paper, still tak menjadi, then pegi wat copy document tu, si hantu tu datang tetibe senang senang cakap aku waste paper, rase menyirap da time tu, then dia makin menjadi, gune jari telunjuk kat aku, mengarah aku, menuduh aku, marah marah aku, wah, bahagia idup dia, jantung aku tetibe bedenyut macam nak meletup, try nak sabar,

tapi tetibe rase macam enough is enough, aku g turun g toilet, call my dad to pick me up, pastu naik atas dengan lajunyer, kau ingat kau bagus, dengan peragai kau macam ni, sape pun takkan boley keje dengan kau, aku kemas barang barang aku, angkat beg, sampai kat pintu keluar, aku jerit kuat kuat, kau ingat dengan semua orang kau boley wat macam tu, perangai macam setan!!! satu office tediam, then aku blah.

sambil jalan melepasi pak gat, aku tetibe tersenyum, rase puas, bahagia, gembire, rase bebas, no more tension. sampai je kat rumah my boss call me, tapi aku mmg tak nak angkat, msg msg dr HR  and rakan sejawat yang lain semua aku ignore.

itulah pegalaman pertama aku keje kat tempat yang macam hell, keje dia ok, tapi sebabkan satu manusia yg berperangai setan tu yang buat aku give up on my job. Bukan tak pernah besabar, da lebih dari sabar, dengan bahasenyer, dan selalu kacau aku wat keje, semua  aku tak wat salah satu pun dalam document tapi care dia tanya macam marah marah, tak puas dengan hasil keje aku, dia macam tak puas hati aku cepat belajar dan tak penah wat salah even I am new.

itu la manusia, tapi salah la kecewa, tak sangka bangsa melayu sesame melayu wat kianat, malu aku bedepan dengan bangsa lain, yang kena maki hamun dengan dia, bukan boss, cuma lame je keje kat situ, naik tocang. hidup dia takkan bahagia.

sekarang aku tengah applied keje baru, i'll try my best, g pun aku nak try jawatan baru , samaada HR, CS OR PR. nak bedepan dengan orang, sememangnyer aku suke jage customer, suke jumpe orang. so i'll try my best!!!

Betulke?

ORANG CAKAP MUKE SAYE MACAM HANTU!!! BETUL KE...

agak lah, itu la kesan kesan cahaye... bukan salah mia huhu...

10 pekara yang sering menganggu penganggur...

1. masakan mak di rumah, alamak badan makin mengembang tanpa disedari

2. masakan sendiri di rumah, still masalah berat sebab bile sendiri masak tak sedap tak de sesape nak habiskan so yg tukang masak tu la kena habiskan..

3. gangguan internet di rumah, 24 hrs facebooking, wire club, friendster (games), blogging (bace blog orang je, blog sndiri tak mende nak cite)

4. gangguan tv, astro lak, dari satu cite ke satu cite, satu keje pun tak buat

5. result tuk akhir semester lepas, mintak mintak lepas, semua lulus, nak kate tak study , study k, tapi biase la low self confident, jawab exam cam buat buku cetakan sendiri je

6. movie korea yang diambil dr pengedar yg dipercayai, asyik ngadap movie je, pastu berangan, acan acan nak dapat bf cmtu la, mimpi je la.

7. bile nak dpt keje, bunyi call umah je, orang petame pegi anggakat phone, tapi kecewa, owg lain nyer call, resume da anta, tapi senyap je, ade ke tak ? adesh, problem tebesar

8. bosannyer, bangun pagi makan, pastu tengok tv, layan fb, alah tak de mende best kat fb, aleh aleh makan tido makan tido

9.diri makin serabai and serabut, mane taknyer, nak besiap g mane, duk dalam umah je, bebaju kelawar je la.

10. undangan kawin kawan kawan, hahaha, letih da nak kasi alasan, yang selalu ditanye, ko bile lagi? , tesengih sengih jawab, hahah, takde bf g pun, camne nak kawin? paling muke, buat muke sepuluh sen, lepas makan terus blah.

Tetibe Rase syahdunyer...

"wah, akhirnyer terjadi jugak hardbound kite ni, susah gile nak siapkan research ni kan", sambil tersenyum tengok hasil penat lelah wat research, satu hardbound di tangan aku, satu lagi di tangan Anis. Anis dengan tersengih sengih mencapai phone bekameranya, " ni kena tangkap gambar ni, wat kenangan, sekali nak letak dalam blog". aku memerhatikan je gelagat si Anis, ke kiri ke kanan, tepusing pusing cari pose yang best tuk hardbound tu. "eh, Anis, aku g mandi dulu la, karang nak g anta kat Dr Amnah kan, nak jumpe puan nora lagi nak pergi tengok on going mark kat En AD lagi kan", anis sambil asyik mencari pose, hanya mengiyakan saje.

" Moto kau or motor aku?", Anis sambil mengunci pagar rumah, "motor kau la, motor aku da takde minyak", tedetik dalam hati, maklumla da akhir semester, pulus pun dah kureng...

"Anis kite ni nak g tunjukkan kat Puan Nora dulu kan, ke nak terus hantar kat Dr Amnah", Anis teginjat ginjat mencari sesuatu, " jap aku tengok , ala kereta tak de r, terus hantar kat Dr je la",

ting!! lift tingkat 3, bejalan terus nak menuju ke bilik Dr. Amnah, "eh, Miss Ema, eh mia, mintak miss tengok dulu la", aku mengiyakan saje, mengikut si anis masuk ke bilik miss, tak sempat 5 minit dalam bilik tu, tetibe Sir Medan masuk, Anis tersenyum je, ye la, tu kan abang angkat die mase diploma dulu, sekarang da jadi lecturer, Anis terus bersuare " Abg, da telanjur de kat sini, tengok sekali la" , sambil menghulurkan satu lagi salinan hardbound ke tangan Sir Medan.

" eh, ni nape tak same, pesal tak gune table, pastu hide la table tu, baru ley jadi same, hah ni kenape pergi gune font lain, ni satu lagi, figure ape??, semate mate tulis figure then numric", satu per satu ditegur, dalam hati almaklum lecturer typing, sah sah la matenyer tajam, da itu je yang di tengoknyer, alamak banyak pulak la salah, Anis mencebik, " ala mia, banyak pulak error nyer, da bagi Puan ita check, nape die tak tegur pun, ni da buat hardbound, ne de pulus da  and ne sempat nak g tukar", aku hanya mampu mencebik balik ke arah Anis, tak terkata, mana tak nyer susah gile nak siapkan mende alah ni, sekali teliti nyer teliti, mende yang alah remeh tu je ley salah, yang tukang check tu pun, urm, memang something wrong somewhere, tengiang giang, salah format, salah format,aku hanya mampu mendiamkan diri je, karang cakap lelebih, tak pegang scrol lak nanti.

"hantar je la Anis, jom, nati Dr balik, tak sempat lak nak submit" sampai je pejabat Dr, tarik nafas lega, ade lagi Dr. kalau tak pegi hantar rumah lagi la, teringat loose bound, sebelum hard bound kitaorang kena submit loose bound dulu, edit punya edit sedar sedar da lepas mase nak submit, belari ke pejabat Dr. tengok da balik, terus call member, "wei pinjam kete", terus rush g cari umah Dr, padahal tak pernah pegi pun, dengan tak tau jalan, yang tahu name tempat je, aku ni dengan menebalkan muke yang tak berapa nak tebal ni, tanye mak cik kat kedai runcit, dalam hati tu je kedai yang ade, mesti Dr, datang beli jugak, nak pendekkan cerita, Allah nak tolong kitaorang, ade la sorang mak cik ni " owh , Dr Amnah ke , makcik kenal, mari ler mak cik tunjuk" ala ala pelek perak gitu, ape lagi membuntut la mak cik tu, jumpe jugak rumah Dr. da settle loose now hardbound,

 Dr membelek satu muke ke satu muke, kesalahan yang same jugak la, " tak boleh macam ni, ni kena ade tajuk, bagus betul korang buat macam ni", fuh, gile tertusuk ooo jantung dengar ayat camtu, da nak wat camne, dengar je la.

salam besalaman dengan Dr. mintak halal segale, sekali Dr kasi lagi ayat power, " tak pe la you all, tebal saje tapi tak boley la I nak letak kat library, I letak kat fakulti je la, I choose the best je la" , wah satu lagi lubang baik nyer kat hati ni, pedih seyh, tersengih sengih kami due blah dari pejabat Dr.

"bagi check tapi tak tegur pun, siap suruh g buat hardbound, huh, letih letih, i'm speechless", sambil berjalan meningalkan pejabat Dr. sambil sambil tu membebel.

tak tau la nak cakap camne bertapa susahnye nak hasil mende tu, tapi kesalahan kecik, kecik tu la yang buat bagi jadi cacat secacat cacatnyer. sedih gile, mia tak tau nak cakap cmne. tak kan nak nagis hempas hempas kepale lak kan, tapi memang hari ni mia rase syahdu gile.

YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU, AKU TAK TAU NAK BERDOA APE KALI NI, AKU TAK TERKATA KATA, SESUNGGUHNYE MEMANG BENAR LA, NATI TIME KERJA LAGI BESAR CABARANNYER,

 ce bayangkan nati, da penat penat buat keje, sekali bos reject mentah mentah je, sedih nyer!!

YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU, SESUNGGUHNYER KAU LA MAHA MENGETAHUI, AKU TERIMA APE SAHAJA YANG KAU BERI, MASIH BERSYUKUR KERANA SUSAH AKU, MASIH ADE YANG LAGI SUSAH DARI AKU.

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Sesudah Subuh

"Nothing's over, Nothing's over" sambil dengar membelik blog anis betemankan lagu tema blog die, fanatik korea budak ni , acan acan siap nak kawin dengan orang korea lagi, sebut pasal korea ingat time mia masuk laman chatting, clik kat korea room chat, huh, sikit pun tak layan, sombong, tah ape yang si anis tu minat sangat pun tak tau, well minat orang lain lain, tetibe terclik kat post final exam, alamak same la mia ngan anis da nak final, sabtu ni start.

buka blog adriana damia

tulis post sesudah subuh

isinye, mia tak start study lagi

still memikirkan nak start ngan past year or nak bace ala ala novel

ke nak sambung tido

 (takley, tk baik tido sesudah subuh)

so mia nak start bace ala ala novel dulu

( ala ala mood baring smbil bace gitu)

masuk ke tak, belakang cite, janji cover semua chapter

hari ni adalah hari 27 bulan April, Rabu

esok Khamis mia nak start buat past year

jumaat nak menghafal

Sabtu dengan mate lebam g wat final

 ( huhu sungguh tidak sihat amalan ni, dilarang meniru aksi ini)

mintak mintak menjadi la plan ni.

ok time to study,

(Otw bace bpr, tajuk chapter pun cam novel: eq: ligthing the way huhu, kan kan, lagi, never walk alone )

( da ala ala the red nyer tag line da).

to all my fwen yang nak final gud luck, terutama si anis tu,

( kitowng satu umah tapi ikut shift, die malam, mia pagi).

chaiyok chaiyok

sebelum tu jum kite tengok ape yang mia dapat ni.

(kreatif plus sengal)

(jangan jawap dalam exam cam diaowng, karang menyesal tak sudah)

till then, gud luck smua.